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July 23, 1996

Sins

The tiniest piece of paper
Can change a lifetime
Too many chemi-kills
I'd rather not list them all
Hell, I don't even know them all
Sand ... Ack! Sand
Skulls of sand
Aging decades in a few minutes
Perfectly formed
Eradicating to dust (ask! sand)
A car ride (that was a car?)
Where are we?
A friend's house, somewhere safe
Too bad I'm already gone
The simplest thoughts leave
A huge void when they disappear
Please tell the trees
To stop waving at me
So here I am, here I was
A lunatic to everyone by myself
I talk to myself to keep me here
Too bad I'm already gone
I've returned before
And I will again
But will I be completely whole
Or will part of me still be gone?
I want off this
Please shut the ride down, sir
I'm not having fun anymore
I'm not myself anymore
But how can I be myself
When I'm too far-gone?
It’s strange
You can totally lose yourself
By gaining
The tiniest piece of paper

L25

(official title: L25 (C20 H25 N3 O) or How Everything Goes Back to Eddie)

i was thinking about something
blah! pluthh!
brainfart!
no, no, no, no ... bad
not good
ahh!
brainfart!
eddie, why are you in my head?
ahh! Get out!
-smack!-
pluthh ... brainfart!
where the hell did that word come from?
ahh! brainfart!
"oh
what a long ...
strange ...
trip its been!"
pluthh! brainfart? nope!
ahh!
yep ... brainfart!

July 18, 1996

Blood Offering

A sacrificial murder

In the name of a Lord
Her not-quite-virgin blood
Spills across the black marble

Altar of sacrifice

I drink of her blood

To release the power locked within
My sins are cast downward
And washed away

By her tainted blood

She died for me

So I could be taken in
I proved my worthiness
By taking her life

Killing her for my Lord